The Ghent Review Volume1, Number 1, summer 2016 | Page 54

-but there is so much to tell
-then begin
-but I don’t always know what the beginning is
-does it matter? We are water, we are flowing
-I always admired the Greek in you
-it’s a question, a matter of fidelity
-to what?
-to what and to everything
-I still don’t know where to begin
-choose any point, select any junction, pick a face out of a crowd and begin
to speculate
-easier said than done
-but speech is not always easy. Complicated thing. Past and present and
future tense available to you and you only have to choose
-but I can’t
-but you can
-and must I because I can?
-you must.
Must I? what is ‘must’ and what is ‘I’ that I should be answerable to them?
From what pit do these questions arise with an authority that is difficult to
refute. I refute or I accept but the questions remain regardless of my wishes
or decisions. I am subject to I. there is no refutation of the self that is tot al.