10
Can you be both the exhibionist and
the voyeur? (myfreecams votes yes)
made sixty two dollars
sprawled across
my tangled Star Wars sheets
in the little blue light of my laptop
baring whatever self i have left
for strangers
who feel entitled to those scraps,
those starved dogs hounding
the dinner table
i strip myself for you
down to stained bone
baring fragile blood vessels
that exact kind of emotional
exhibitionism you have become
a purveyor of
as i place my fingers
between my legs
it feels awfully like slamming
car doors shut
on brittle bone
the chat room
is filled with
faster, baby
harder, baby
you’re so hot, baby
and i know i shouldn’t like it
but it feels a lot like
losing my virginity
in a parking lot
on one of those
summer nights
where i can almost confuse
the light pollution orange
glow of the sky for
something beautiful