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S he wears many hats – wife, mother, daughter – among many others out in community such as registered nurse and board member of Canadian Mental Health Association - Calgary Region. Candace Watson also lives with Bipolar Disorder. In discussing her journey with the disease for almost 20 years, Watson identifies one of the most significant factors in successfully navigating the often turbulent path of living with a mental disorder continues to be the close personal relationships. This is where she finds a lot of her strength. Watson says. “Knowing people who love and support me is one of the most important parts.” Watson says those loving and supportive relationships are how she manages through the complexities caused by the long-running battle she has experienced since her first manic episode and official diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder in 1995. At the time of her first manic episode, Watson was in her third year of nursing school. Her family was as confused as she was about what was happening and how to handle it. In fact, Watson says it was getting close to tearing the family apart. “It was kind of walking on eggshells – nobody knew what to say and it was never the right thing. We had to get back to a place where we were all acting normally around each other again.” The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSMV) characterizes Bipolar I Disorder as the occurrence of one of more manic episodes. While symptoms of mania may include extreme optimism, euphoria and feelings of grandeur; rapid, racing thoughts and hyperactivity; a decreased need for sleep; increased irritability; impulsiveness and possibly reckless behaviour for Watson, a manic episode often includes all of these as well as paranoia. “When I get so sick that I don’t have that foot in reality anymore, where I can’t respond normally and not act on my delusions, that’s when I get hospitalized.” Having a family equipped and willing to support her makes all the difference according to Watson. “If we ever need anything, that’s how my mom, my dad, my in-laws, kind of kick in and help, such as driving the kids or being with me because I can’t be alone when I’m in a manic episode.” She also credits her husband Collin and the unique role he plays in that he is with her daily, talking to her, supporting her through the “difficulties of my thoughts and what’s going on in my head.” Watson has built strong networks of support – immediate family, her husband, friends and extended family have all become part of the management of the illness. “We (husband Collin and herself) made decisions along the way that were based on accepting that I needed help and support. And knowing where we would most likely get that, ultimately, we made the choice we needed to be where our greatest support systems are.” Watson says that accepting that she would require help was difficult, as she has always been an independent person. In accepting that though, she acknowledges there is a freedom that comes with it, making the decision to Annual Report to the Community 2013-2014 cmha-2013-ar.indd 13 13 14-06-23 1:05 PM