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had concealed even from herself, and her decision to pick it up again was a huge gamble. ‘You can imagine how everyone just thought I was crazy,’ she tells me. ‘I even had a fight with my family about it when I told them I was going to quit my job to pursue art.’ After Xiaofan gave up engineering, she got an internship with an art gallery. It wasn’t particularly creative. In fact, it was largely publicity and sales, but it felt great. She was in the art industry now. And after just six months, she began freelancing. Painting a dream The Untamed Little Wolf was soon born – or maybe she always had been around? ‘When I was 12, one of my favourite fictional characters was the little fox from The Little Prince. ‘I always loved the quote: “If you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world” – so when I was trying to figure out a name for my Instagram, I decided to combine this with my own nickname: Wolf.’ Xiaofan says that it is too early in her creative life to assign herself to one particular style, but she loves to explore different techniques and methods. She tells me, ‘watercolour is my favourite medium. I love how spontaneously and freely the paint flows on the paper.’ It seems that her favourite medium is an apt reflection of herself: untamed, wild. ‘It feels like the paint has its own expressive idea and sometimes the result surprises me, too!’ I was curious to know whether engineering plays a part in her creativity at all, but Xiaofan is quick to tell me, ‘I don’t think so. Maybe when I plan, or stock materials, as I am very organised, but I think they’re very separate parts of my brain.’ It’s been an exciting journey for her, but it’s not without its difficulties. When she quit her job, to pursue what she hoped would be a successful business, she still needed her art to support her financially, even if it would never compare to the salary she received when she was an engineer. But does that faze her? She’s doing something that she loves, finally. She’s positive that someday, somewhere, she’ll make it. ‘Even if I don’t,’ she says, ‘at least I am happy with my life.’ Her parents are beginning to accept the idea, but sometimes don’t quite understand her drive for it. Only recently, her mum tried to persuade her to look for a more stable job, but she is hopeful that, in time, her success will make her parents proud. Ultimately, the people she’s met along the way have helped her realise she’s doing >> Xiaofan: This is one of my first works when I started painting last year, and still my absolute favourite! I have a crazy love for foxes (I even got a fox tattoo on my ankle last year too!).