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50 Populär Culture Review Mort’s unbearable guilty conscience towards John Kintner that was only triggered by Amy’s disloyalty. As Mort’s memory weakens, his state of fiinctional amnesia following the violent acts increases. He suffers from “temporarily impaired consciousness” (Cartwright 1149) during which his fear of memory activation is cut off. As a result, the writer lives in total denial of his dark half. His inability to remember his deeds, in combination with his absolute unawareness of being “both great good and profound evil” (Moskowitz 23) is disclosed in his repetitive questions: “If I did all that, why can’t I remember? ... Why can’t I remember even nowT (King, Window 241). Mort’s mental confusion is indicative for the young author’s highly developed DID, which allows “a disruption in the usually integrated functions of consciousness, memory, identity, or perception of the environment” (Moskowitz 23). In these dissociative States, Mort’s once familiär environment transforms into an unfamiliar place filled with hypnopompic and hypnagogic images.5 Mort’s attempts to escape from reality by accessing the land of dreams, in combination with his suffering from DID, psychogenic amnesia, and identity alterations, prove that he is suffering from both normal and pathological dissociative States6 during which he finds himself involved in actions of which he later does not have any recollection. Progressing Self-alienation Towards Self-dissolution Ignorant about his true seif, Mort Rainey misperceives his unease as Professional unproductiveness, bad marriage, sexual betrayal, alcohol, low selfesteem, an “un-woman smell” (King, Window 310) in the house, or simply as John Shooter whom he understands as “a donkey to [be used to] pin this rotten, stinking tail on” (King, Window 261). In projecting his unknown sensations that provoke his sincere inner tumult on the outside, he not only objectifies and shifts his responsibility of dealing with these inner disturbances on his companions but also detaches himself from everything familiär. Hence, he experiences selfalienation and the incapability of self-definition. The resulting inner conflicts manifest themselves in the character’s change of physical appearance and psychological temper, which is representational for an unconscious extemalization and projection of his usually well-repressed inner conflict at whose core is the defmition of identity. As a consequence, Mort lets love tum into disgust and hatred, beauty into horror, total silence into mysterious noises, and sanity into madness. Mort changes into “some stranger who [looks] like Mort (