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70 Popular Culture Review personalities, although Bella’s obsessive personality crosses over to that of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Particularly, displayed in the first two novels of the series, Twilight and New Moon, Bella becomes so consumed by her love for Edward that she loses what little sense of self she possessed prior to meeting him, and ultimately, by the end of the series, she loses her own human life. More specifically, and more characteristic to BPD, she dismisses friends, minimizes contact with family, and forgets about her own academic and career goals. In addition, during their interim breakup, she engages in high-risk-taking behavior, searches out and becomes preoccupied with Jacob Black, a “replacement” male, experiences auditory hallucinations, and even, arguably, attempts suicide. However, this irrational obsession, and inability to let go of the toxic relationship due to mental instability—despite the danger for Bella, a human who closely and dangerously intermingles in a vampire’s world—are what keep the couple together and ultimately allow the plot development of the intriguing Twilight series to unfold. One factor that could disrupt Bella’s use of logic—or the ability to remove herself from the dangerous relationship—is her twisted view of love for Edward. For BPDs, this feeling, called “dysfunctional regulation of emotion,” is so strong and sometimes so overbearing that often all rational thought is completely discredited (NIMH par. 1). Along with dysfunctional regulation of emotion, other characteristics of BPD, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, is that BPD affects mostly young women and is identified by pervasive instability in moods, interpersonal relationships, self-image, and behavior (par. 1). This instability often disrupts family, friendships, school or work life, long term planning, and the individual’s overall sense of self-identity (par. 1). For a person suffering from BPD, an overall sense of identity is at great risk when a person does not have an established self-identity to start. Unfortunately, for Bella, this is the case: the audience learns early on in the novel that Bella has always been a bit of an outcast; she never seemed to fit in anywhere. For instance, while living in Phoenix, having only a few insignificant friends, the pallid, dark-haired Bella was unathletic and physically awkward compared to the tan, blond, “cheerleader” types who are popular and who Bella considers beautiful (Meyer, Twilight 9). Bella also often feels completely out of touch with people, including her own mother: “Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.” (10). So identity, from the beginning, is an area in which Bella is lacking; she feels lonely, awkward, and shy and doesn’t seem to socially fit in with the rest of her peers or anyone else, for that matter (9). When Bella arrives in the small town of Forks, her ability to develop a social life suddenly shifts as, much to her surprise; she is suddenly bombarded with attention. The local teens are infatuated with the new girl, and both boys and girls alike seek to become her friend, and in the case of many of the boys, she quickly becomes a romantic interest. So although she still doesn’t feel that