meant I was not going to pick names or anything I just thought that some of the
things my family did would make a great book and I didn't realize that at the age of
16 I really could have been a writerI did not start writing until about 14 years ago
that was when I started.
Ayoka: I get it. totally get that because I have a tendency to process what people
say and then what I hear are two totally different things absolutely someone can
tell me something especially those that I'm closest with they can say something and
it means nothing to them but it can send me down here for two weeks and they
don't even remember what they said. I can bring it back to them and they say that
wasn't what I said and I'll tell them but that was what I heard
Tresser: Exactly, my mother said later, “I never meant for you not to write! I just
didn't want you to write the names.” I told my mom and she said I didn't mean for
you not to write I just meant don't use the words don't use the names she didn't
realize that just her words I took those words and cut my dream of not
understanding that she was just saying don't put the names I thought she just did
not want me to write it was the way that I took it well.
She reads my books now and will say, “Hmm isn't that such and such”, and I just
smile because she recognizes the traits.
Ayoka: Your biggest fear about the depression?
Tresser: I don’t allow myself to get there now. I can feel it coming on. I pray and I
cope. I've accepted the condition but my biggest fear is that a day will come that
the medication doesn't work anymore.