It’s
Tough
I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday.
No, not really but sometimes I do in my
mind. I contemplate elaborate scenarios
telling him over the phone or right
before boarding my flight back home.
Long distance relationships aren’t the
easiest task. Actually they might be one
of the hardest things you’ll ever have to
do. You’re basically telling yourself that
you trust someone who you can’t see
every day or sometimes every month.
You give them your faith and I don’t
have much.
I have trust issues and it doesn’t help
that I’m my boyfriend’s first girlfriend.
So this long distance relationship is
even harder.
Honestly, he doesn’t make our
relationship easy because he doesn’t
know how. It’s like he’s learning how
to skateboard. He knows the basics.
Kick, push, coast but he has questions.
Like how do you balance? How do you
keep yourself from messing up? Do
you change boards or keep practicing?
When you fall down do you get up and
try again?
Yes, I know I referenced my
relationship to a skateboard but
honestly didn’t it make sense?
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I’m used to relationships where the guy
by Ashley of
Twe1ve2
knows what to do. He doesn’t want to
go to a “club” or “party” on weekends
because he’d rather Skype me or text
me all night. He knows going out with
his friends doesn’t help my trust issues
so he doesn’t. When he messes up he
keeps trying instead of talking to other
females about it or allowing me to talk
to other guys.
Long distance relationships and first
relationships are hard!
They don’t have to be though and I’m
not making it any easier. Even this
sounds like I’m giving up putting in
the towel before really giving us a shot
but I’m not. We’re not broken up…just
sometimes in my daydreams. When I
imagine him hurting me and my selfesteem dropping. Where I throw away
the gifts he’s given me because he still
talks to the girl that liked him first.
Where I cry.
It’s not his fault, it’s mine. Sometimes
you have to give trust and let go of
your anxieties. Only then can someone
expect for a long distance relationship
to work. I’m not giving up on mine
and if you’re in one too I’d suggest you
don’t either. It takes work but if it’s
worth it than it doesn’t deserve to end.